I am naked in a book...

Let me tell you this is not an easy subject to broach... with anyone... family, friends, co-workers... much less a potential boyfriend.

I figured the best way to handle it, and the possible fall out was to hit it head on. After all, it's not something I'm embarrassed or ashamed of, and if he's going to be, well best we all know now. In all fairness he's the one who brought up skeletons in the closet. I believe the term "Charged but never convicted" was used. So I figured it might be okay to bring up my presence in an art photography book... naked. Granted it was a second date, and maybe telling someone you've stripped down for art that early is like saying "I love you" too soon, but I took a chance.

On the surface it was well recieved... not even a cheap leer or request to see it. He said "Well, it's art." I thought it went over well. But it still wasn't easy to spit out. And later, as we walked along the street and ran into people he knew, I wonder if it began to sink in with him.

This girl is naked in a coffee table book. Some people here will probably see it. Maybe some
of them have seen it already.

It's like how the dream of dating a stripper or porn star is not quite the same when you realize that everyone has seen what you're seeing. Some people just can't handle it. Have you ever seen the look in a man's eyes when he meets someone his girl has slept with? It's this moment where he realizes that someone else has seen his prize.

Now it's the modern age, and few of us are naive enough to think that our partners have not been naked with other people. But the truth remains, we don't like to be reminded of it. No one likes the evidence staring them in the face.

Do I think I made a mistake? No. The photographer is extremely talented, the photo striking, and my dignity intact. Do I think it's something I might hold back a little while longer on the list of confessions? Maybe. At least until I think he's kinda hooked, so there's something at stake for him if he panics about it.

In the end, though, if he can't handle the truth, then it's best to know as early as possible.